unwantedness en · NOUN
Etymology
From unwanted + -ness.
Meanings
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(uncountable) The state or quality of being unwanted.
By kindergarten, Lisa had internalized her unwantedness and begun “to feel there was something gross and shameful about me,” as if she were “wormy inside, like I’d caught whatever disease or larvae were passed through raw eggs and flour when I snuck raw cookie dough.”
2018 April 9, Melanie Thernstrom, “The Father of Personal Computing Who Was Also a Terrible Dad”, in The New York Times: