self-despair en · NOUN
Etymology
From self- + despair.
Meanings
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(uncountable) Despair about oneself or one's own actions or behaviour.
Her flame […] soared after some illimitable satisfaction, which would reconcile self-despair with the rapturous consciousness of life beyond self.
1872, George Eliot, Middlemarch, PreludeTripping herself up with sadder and more and more neurotic acts of self-despair.
2007, Alexander Theroux, chapter 45, in Laura Warholic: